Sashiko mend not only the fabric but also ourselves…
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I sometimes feel I am in deep s**t. (sorry for the bad word – don’t have another idiom to express my feeling). It was such a year of 2019. I appreciate so many who support what I do. From workshops, Patreon, shopping(customers), and friendships. Without them, I would have closed this account by now. I am here because of them (and probably you). At the same time, unfortunately, those who I appreciate are the minority – not the majority. There are still people who keep crossing the boundary that I clearly stated everywhere – intentionally or unintentionally. You may advise, “Don’t give a s**t to those…” absolutely right, but you know my core principle is to “care”. lol. After all, I am an honest idealist who believes in humanity. As horrible as it sounds, I know I am in big trouble. See, I am in deep s**t, aren’t I? (I apologize for the bad words – please educate me if you know the better phrases to express what I feel).
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Regardless, I believe I can communicate the sincere beauty of stitching. I believe Sashiko mended not only the fabric but the stitchers themselves. Again – the Antonym of “Love” is not “Hate” – the antonym of Love is “not caring”, in my belief. ☆
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幼い頃からずっと夢がありました。でも、その夢の輪郭は朧気なもので、一直線に進めるだけのものではありませんでした。自分じゃない誰かになりたかった。でも、そのなりたい「誰か」を定義するのも怖くて、一歩が踏み出せませんでした。音に興味があるから音楽家？人を笑わせることが好きだから芸人？本が好きだから作家？一つに絞ると、「夢を叶えた自分」を嫌いになりそうで、努力はするけれど、何も具体的な一歩を踏み出すことはありませんでした。チープな言い方をすれば、何者かになるのが怖かったんだと思います。
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音も笑いも文章も、今の僕の大切な要素の一つです。そして、不思議な事に、「違うのになりたかった自分の原点」である刺し子と共に生きる覚悟をしています。同時に今でも、「自分じゃない誰か」になりたいのかもしれません。夢は懐き続けているんだと思います。音も笑いも文章も刺し子も。全部抱えてやれることを全部やる人になれたらいいなぁなんて思っています。母親が、NYCで初めてワークショップをする僕に作ってくれた襤褸は夢と今を結び止める大事な作品です。
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2019-12-21 16:30:33
I have spent many hours this year mending myself as I mend the fabric- both my clothes and my family’s.
I still have more hours to go as it is a never ending cycle. It is, however, much easier to do with needle in hand.
With every word that you say, with every image that you share, you bring wisdom and beauty to my life
I can’t say for everyone, but I believe many (most?) people know this feeling of deep s**t. I won’t tell you “everything will be fine,” because it won’t. But doing your stitching & saying your truth, make a commitment to honesty & your work (whatever that is) are the things which provide strength & good “pillow.” You are in the world for a few reasons. You chose this. Since you are going your best, that is enough. I don’t mean this to be a lecture, no. I say this to give you encouragement. There will be more light starting tomorrow. 😉
your posts are always educational & inspirational for me. thank you for making them.
Your work is beautiful. That’s your path. Whatever someone else says and does – that’s their energy and path. You do not have to join them.
I wish you the best year ever in 2020. Thank you so much for sharing your ability. I have learned and are still learning (off course) a lot from you watching our YouTube videos.
So you are doing well and good👍🏼.
( It’s okay to use bad words, if they the cover the feelings you have😉)
You are wonderful ❣️
💙 your work is beautiful and I always appreciate your wisdom and honesty.