I prefer to work alone. It isn’t like I do not need help. In fact, I DO need hel

I prefer to work alone. It isn’t like I do not need help. In fact, I DO need help with everything. I just (always) hesitate to involve others because I know there is a big possibility of “misunderstanding” such as “Moving Toward a Different Destination”. I don’t mind compromising things, but I do not want to change my message – It is my responsibility to be straightforward for you who are here & keep learning what Sashiko is for us.
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From time to time, though, I come across a person/company with big passion. It is often “a person” who knows me already as to how difficult I could be. I usually become very cold & grumpy to those who don’t care about Sashiko – but just looking at the outcome (money or popularity) behind it. This business trip happened thanks to “the person” who persistently convinced me. She promised me that I can be who I am in the process, and there isn’t any pressure to say/express based on their purpose. It is quite a rare case in a society where many contact artists/artisans with the “premade” article or conclusion. They took a risk of having me, and it was my time to return. Honestly, it was extremely tiring for 3 days… I didn’t even have energy to go get dinner, yet I hope I could offer something to someone who appreciated what I do. (More details will be coming when they officially announce it).
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There are reasons, and stories why we call them professional. The more I work with the professionals, the more I realize how much I need it. At the same time, however, it is important for me to respect their professions while protecting my own profession… so, it will be slow, but this opportunity taught me it isn’t impossible. I will keep trying to be persistent in what we practice & believe in.
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無事（？）出張の4日目の最終日です。刺し子業で失敗をして、刺し子を再開して、目的地をしっかりと見定めるようになってから、できるだけ人を巻き込まないように過ごしてきました。一人で仕事が完結するように。もし巻き込むのを了承頂けるのであれば、丁寧にしっかりと説明をしてから。誰よりも助けが必要な自分だとわかっているからこそ、中途半端に「助けて」とは言えないんです。でも、時にそんな面倒な壁を乗り越えて下さる方もいます。今回のお仕事はそんな感じでした。詳細は後程になりますが、こうして様々な分野のプロの方と一緒にお仕事ができるのは、とても刺激になりましたし、幸せだなと思うのです。
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2022-12-08 22:25:01

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