I cannot stop myself from giving my best when it comes to “work” – and on this b

I cannot stop myself from giving my best when it comes to “work” – and on this business trip, in the last 2 days, I pretty much used all the energy I had toward the end of each day… Not even a small energy to open the PC.
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I always get “nervous” when I work with others. They are so nice that they will try to reduce my anxiety, but the “worry” is something I cannot change – or even, something I do not want to change. I don’t know how much time we have left to share what Sashiko is for us. Every opportunity I receive can be the critical & final moment of us sharing Sashiko – and that’s how Japanese had stitched Sashiko, and ended up with Boro.
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There are probably better ways to “preserve” Sashiko if the goal is just being popular. However, I have a very specific challenge to describe what Sashiko is in English. Now, with many people trying to understand what we are doing, I see a possible future of our Sashiko being practiced after we are gone. When I accepted my fate, it became my faith. Another day or so to complete the work in this opportunity. One last squeeze of what I have.
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今回の出張、普段の「刺し子を教える」というお仕事からは離れた新しい挑戦をしています。初めてご連絡を頂いたのが2年前。その後、私の面倒なリクエストにも愛想を尽かさず、
「淳が伝えたいことを伝えられるように」と準備し、実際の仕事を迎えることができています。普段から出張でのお仕事は、全身全霊を尽くすので写真を撮る暇すらないのですが、今回も写真を撮る時間がないどころか、一日が終わるとそのまま倒れ込んでしまうような状況です。それでも、常に真剣であることが大切なんだろうと思っています。いつまで私達が刺し子を続けられるかはわかりません。どれだけ刺し子に対しての思いを残せるかもわかりません。だからこそ一回一回が真剣勝負で、生と死の間にある輝きが、当時の刺し子の針目であり、美しいとされる襤褸なんじゃないかなと思うのです。お仕事が終わったら、改めてご報告しますね。
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2022-12-07 23:13:35

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