So many “Good Intentions” were about to kill my feelings. I found myself in tear

So many “Good Intentions” were about to kill my feelings. I found myself in tears for no specific reasons, and distanced myself from SNS for a while. There are so many “positivity”, and “expectation to be Happy”, regardless of its nature of what we do. I realize, a phrase everyone agrees as something positive (nice) because of its “Good Intention” can be the most sharp emotional knife for someone else. I am tired of Emotional Labor. I know I am exhausted by those “positivety”. I have been so tired of “Correct Sashiko” the last couple of years observing my own culture being repainted by someone without commitment, or even respect for that matter. I know they mean well. I understand they don’t mean to hurt others. It is true that “Culture” Changes, and we all have the right to enjoy what we want to. However, “it” hurts. Some say, “Oh, come on. You benefited from this Sashiko trend”. Yes, we may be benefited from the trend in their “Western Value”. In reality, I am working much more in whirlpools – as someone described me as “a stone in a big trend”. I wish I didn’t have to.
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I will be doing Sashiko tomorrow, and 10 years from now as well. No matter what happens to “Sashiko Trend”, what I do remains the same, as probably many “Sashiko Masters” will switch their “mastery” to something new. This type of “Consumption” is not sustainable at all even if it is good for general “sustainability”. Please, please choose who you learn from, who you get inspired from, and who you support directly & indirectly. “Being Japanese” itself isn’t a universal ticket to teach Sashiko. At the same time, I wonder, what do they mean by “Sashiko Master” when they don’t have ways to communicate to Japanese Sashiko Artisans directly.
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I won’t stop sharing Sashiko Story. It is for my daughter, my mother Keiko, and ultimately for myself. I won’t stop stitching. Tomorrow, Thursday night, it is Sashiko Live Streaming on Youtube: where I share “unedited” Sashiko stitching in so much “edit” on the screen.
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少し投稿に時間が空いてしまいました。特に何かあった訳ではないと思うのですが、積もりに積もったものに、定期的に押し潰されてしまうようで。しかも、積もるスピードは速くなる一方で。また金曜日の日本語配信でお話ししますね。Youtubeで、「刺し子物語」を検索ください。
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2022-06-16 10:11:16

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