Happy New Year! It is another Japanese custom to share the new year’s resolution

Happy New Year! It is another Japanese custom to share the new year’s resolution, which I believe many culture have the similar custom. My resolution for 2021 is to overcome “fear” of being judged (disliked). As much as I try to write honest insight here, I am often scared of the possible pain that I may end up going through by sharing. This year, I will try to face the fear more – not ignore the fear, acknowledge the fear.  

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I understand the general needs in Sashiko trend. The short, easy, positive, and “how to” message will bring us more “followers”. I like it to be happy & peaceful as well. However, I learned the existence of “pain” that I didn’t realize before. It isn’t physical pain – more like emotional pain. After all, “who follows (friends who cares what i write)” is more important than “how many follow” in this account. So, I try to be a little bit more honest here in 2021.

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Last year, one criticism I received surprised me. They claimed “Atsushi is (always) angry”. When I ask for reasonable respect to Japanese culture behind the words, some told me my anger was destructive. I am not angry – I sometimes choose to be angry, but most of my feelings are not anger – it is sadness – and the “pain”. I am just trying to be honest, yet the honesty was perceived as anger there.　I was…well, I am scared of that. I don’t like to be judged or disliked. However, ever since I realized the “pain”, I don’t have an option to keep silent. 2021 is going to be the year of stitching & facing myself while relying on Sashiko as the mirror to understand who I am.

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あけましておめでとうございます。コロナ禍の大晦日。ドライブスルーでイルミネーションを楽しむという、とても不思議な時間を過ごしました。なにはともあれ、家族と一緒に新年を迎えられたこと、何よりも幸せだと思っております（今年はより一層）。配信できずに申し訳なかったです。近い内に配信したいと思っています。

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今年の抱負は「怖がらずに語る」ということです。吃驚されるかもしれませんが、刺し子について語る時、実は恐怖があるんです。どんな恐怖なのか……それも含めて、一つずつ丁寧にご説明して刺し子をお伝えしていけたら良いなと思っています。静かな激動の一年になりそうです。本年もどうぞ宜しくお願いいたします。

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2021-01-01 08:36:11

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