A bit of whining today. Skip this if you don’t like the negativity.
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I sometimes wonder why I am sharing the Sashiko we practice with sacrificing the time with my family. We send her daycare, and my income from Sashiko is just about to pay for that. The previous post – Zokin, I even mentioned to not to use the Sashiko thread, which is the thread that my main income source is . LOL. It is funny, but at the same time, I sometimes feel that I could have (and occasionally “should have”) got another job to support the family. My wife is strong and supportive to respect my choice. ☆
Why do I continue sharing Sashiko…? I explained (to myself) so many times and shared my reasoning on the website several times. Regardless of that, I occasionally become a (weak) individual to wonder for the instant gratitude. The truth of practice does not reside in words, therefore a paragraph only share the tip of the iceberg. It is brave to express in words because of the risk in quick reading (misunderstanding). Sometimes, Speech is silver, silence is golden. However, silence is not kindness – especially when introducing the cultural aspect of a practice.
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I am here to share the Sashiko we practice to anyone. Please read what I write instead of reading what you want to read. Please view me as who I currently am instead of what you want to reflect on me. Your support is the motivation for me to keep going. ☆
ちょっとばかし愚痴です。愚痴が嫌いな方は飛ばして下さい。
今回の雑巾、楽しかったのは事実なのですが、動画を編集しながら「俺は何をしているんだろう？」とふと自問自答をしてしましました。「お金を第一義にしない（勿論利益を出すことは大事だけど）」と活動をしていて、覚悟は決めたはずなのだけど、人間の心とは角も儚く満足を探してしまうものだなぁと。
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僕が表現していることは、おそらく、日本語圏内だけで生活していたら、言葉にも映像にもなっていません。雑巾も刺し子も家庭内や地域内で継承されてきたもので、日本人的な謙虚さを重視して、「僕なんかが」という気持ちが強かったからです。その上で「刺し子をするなら我が社の糸を」って思ってた時期は勿論ありますが、でも、刺し子を代弁しようとは思ってもみなかった。それは本来、刺し子のような針仕事は、きっとおばあちゃんから孫へと自然に伝わるものだったと思うからです。
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たぶん僕は相当に保守的です。誇りを感じているものを守りたいと思うのは当たり前。だから、やっぱり刺し子の形を崩したくない。その為に試行錯誤をしていて、でも娘との時間も割いて表現もしていて、「何してんのかなぁ」と思ったりもするのです。それでも、素敵な出会いがあるおかげで、愚痴言いながらも前に進めるんですけどね。
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2019-06-24 16:51:55
大変だと思いますが凄く素敵なことだと思いますよ羨ましい限りです🙏
I always love reading your words and also looking at the images of your beautiful work xx
I will probably never fully understand, which is okay, I think. Acceptance may suffice. But I respond at risk of revealing my ignorance, I want to say that I perceived nothing negative in what you share. Transparent, vulnerable…yes. I love reading your posts. I love seeing the work. I envy it. My hands aren’t steady, and I’m afraid to make a mess of things. Not negative, just real. Our common humanity. <3 (can't find hearts on my computer lol)
日本の伝統的な技法というのは、そうやっていい意味で頑固に気骨を持って守ってきた方々がいらっしゃってくださったからこそ今に伝えられてきているんだと思います。素晴らしいです💕😊
We appreciate your time and talent
I enjoy your posts and I understand your concern in caring for your family. I hope there is a way to continue to teach Sashiko and to somehow make enough money that makes you feel what you are worth!!! You deserve it!
So wonderfull
I can understand how u feel. I love embroidery but the cost of going to course n the material is a lot. My husband encourages me to get back to IT rather than teaching or doing embroidery, which doesn’t earn much. I guess i can work during weekdays n do embroidery weekends. I don’t think we should give up on what we love to do but may be shifting some more time for more important issues, like looking after children. I have children too but they r teenagers n in boarding school. Easier but i have to find time to fly to see them during term breaks.
We all have those days when we know our passion and talent are our valuable essence. Getting others to understand and support us is another hurdle. Don’t give up you need to continue for everyone who creates. Still surviving 30 years in.
🔝🔝 me encanta.. subarashi.. mayimedesune😱😍
🔝🔝 me encanta.. subarashi.. mayimedesune😱😍
You made a good choice! It is always a good choice, when folloing ones heart and passion. Because of you and your posts, I have finished my first yakuta today wich I embroidered with freestyle sashiko. Thank you! I have a facebook page, where you can see the result if you are curious. As for suporting your family and making a living I can only tell you, to keep believing in God`s endless supply and to keep visualizing your desires. Never think or speak of what you don`t want, only of what you want. If you feel like you want to start wining, start doing something which brings you joy and tell yourself, that it is just a challenge. Get back into the good vibes. Go and seek out friends who lift you up and, as I already suggested, find an occupation which brings you back on track. 🙂 It is the art of perfecting oneself, practice, practice, practice. Love from Germany. Christina
I am very excited to take your class at quiltcon 2020. The Friday class sold out in minutes. I was lucky to get into the Saturday class. I love all your posts. Sashiko seems to be everywhere now but I am waiting to learn from you because I appreciate your authentic way.
Omg!!!!!! Just know that your knowledge is appreciated world wide! Thank you for making the decision to share your invaluable skills!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am soooooooo freaking excited to spend the day absorbing sashiko! Thank you thank you! @sashi.co
浪人風😁